I'm so pissed off and frustrated.
Let me explain.
No, it's too long, let me sum up.
I bought a wallet, 3 Mother's Day cards and 2 packs of note cards yesterday. I left the bag in the bathroom before I left. I remembered I'd left it there 2 hours after the mall had closed. I came back this morning, mall management didn't have it in their lost and found, the sent me to Hallmark where I'd gotten the cards. Hallmark didn't have it, they sent me to maintenance. I didn't know where maintenance was. I checked back in at the mall management lost and found, they said if Maintenance had it, it would be there.
I spent $45 dollars yesterday and now I have nothing to show for it, and I'm pissed off because no one knows who would have it, and none of them have it anyway. And I had all of my Mother's Day cards done. I was done, I didn't have to do anything but personalize them and if someone took the bag and didn't turn it in anywhere, I mean, I hope they like all that shit I bought for them because I certainly did.
I mean, who fucking does that anyway. I understand, like, change on the floor, or barrettes and bobby pins, or, like, little things like that, if you didn't turn them in. But a whole fucking bag of someone's purchases.
I better get a call from the mall lost and found today or I might throw a fit.
All this on top of me feeling like shit this morning (seriously, if I didn't have as strong of a gag suppression system as I do...), the fact that I'm not going to get more than maybe 11 hours of sleep over the next two days, I'm stressed over graduation going well because my whole fucking family is coming in to see it and they're gonna be pissed because they have no choice but to be in an auxiliary room.
And I still can't make anyone happy. Not even myself. I just...
I just want to cry, but I can't because I'm at fucking school in an attempt to finish all of my microeconomics tests before the end of today (or before 5:30 because that's when I start my marathon work weekend).
I'm just tired and angry and frustrated and I want the whole world to just end.
Until Next Time,
Me
You're a really great person. In spite of what others have told you, in spite of what some may have led you to believe, you're awesome. You will one day reach a point in your life where you genuinely like the person you've become. No one will need to inform you, no one will need to argue with your self-doubt. It will take many years of hard work and stumbling, but those dark times you thought would never end will ultimately galvanize you into someone worthy of your own admiration and respect. You will make difficult choices and take a lot of wrong turns, but it will feel like it all happened to make you stronger, more courageous, more amazing.
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