Saturday, October 29, 2011

Among Other Things...

...This layout isn't exactly my cup of tea.  I think it's just because I was used to the other way and now they've changed the whole damn thing.  Eh, whatever.

I hate when people I want to like and be friends with do shit that makes me not feel bad about them anymore.  It's those people who post annoyingly depressing facebook updates I'm talking about specifically right now.

See, I have this friend and well call him CD for...idk, Cool Dude, or something.  Anyway, point is, he's posted mostly statuses of his girl troubles for YEARS.  I finally got up the gumption to talk to him, hoping to relieve some of the self-inflicted girl pain for him and get him to know a girl who isn't a shallow bitch trying to get into his pants and bring drama all the time.

So what does he do?  He responds for a little bit and then now when I try and say hi, I get no response.  He's still out there, posting his passive-agressive facebook statuses, but he won't talk to me.

So I think I'm just going to let him dig his own hole.  Great guys are always going to get turned down if they always ignore the girl trying to be the good friend and date only bitches n' hos.


He's always asking for places to be on the weekend, and I've told him we should hang out, but I'm leaving it at that and if he really wants someone to hang out with, he can still get in touch with me, but I'm sorry, partying is not where I want to be right now, and certainly not with the shallow, insecure, drama-bringing girls he normally hangs out with.  I just won't deal with it.

Buh, sorry to rant in your faces guys.  I'll try to chill out about it.

Hey, guess what?!  We got our house cleansed by GL's bestest boss in the whole entire world, and I haven't had any of those night terror/ghost things since!!  We'll just keep hoping it stays that way :)

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Things that Terrify Me (1/?)

Over the course of about two weeks to a month, I've had a number of episodes where I will be partially awake in my bed and unable to move.  During this time, I can feel the bed moving and I hear things, most commonly voices.  I feel terror and dread, usually, and I cannot move much or speak.  I have come to the conclusion that I am experiencing some sort of sleep paralysis or night terror, and normally I can will it away by forcing myself back to sleep, or by fighting it off by imagining myself surrounded by a bright white light of protection.

Last night I had about four or five episodes, scattered between dreaming and sleeping.

It was disturbing.  You try waking up in the middle of the night with your bed moving and not be able to know why.  That and the auditory hallucinations.  THOSE are creepy.  I can never actually make out words, but it's like it's right by my ear.  They're raspy and are probably only my head against the pillow, but my GOD does it scare the bejeebus out of me.

That and all my dreams were like I was actually living them.  They were realistic and I never knew where I was or where I was supposed to be, or what I was supposed to be doing.  Luckily my mommy was in my dream, so she helped a little bit.

I'm sure there will be more posts on this subject, so stay tuned.  But for right now I'm going to scare off my willies and try and not be so shaky.

Until Next Time, Dear Readers