Yep, that's right, it's time for me to be back in school. And boy howdy do I have a wait ahead of me.
Okay, sorry, I just happened to look at the time and that's what it was. Anyway, I've been sitting for the last hour and a half or so, trying to be busy. I have another two hours ahead of me before I have to be anywhere, but it's just not worth the gas money to go home. So I'm testing my laptop battery's strength. We're doing pretty good so far. Which really oughtn't be so surprising, but as I'm a charger FIEND, it's nice that it's not below 50% right now. We've still got 7% until then, and I'm not exactly hoping it goes quickly. I should be fine, though. I'll be fine until it's down towards 17% and then that's when the computer starts to worry too. And I really don't think it's going to come to that at all.
Anyway, so yeah, I'm just sitting in one of the student lounges, typing away like I've got something important to be doing, but really I'm just waiting until I have lab.
Oughtn't take long, as it's the first day of class, but I'm prepared anyway.
Got lunch too, which I wasn't exactly planning on, but whatever. It works out that Wednesdays are the days that one of the school teams (fuck if I know which one) sells food outside of the bookstore. It was a pretty good burger and bag of chips.
And then I tried to finish a story I've been writing for about three years now. It's going pretty well actually. I've just finished a chapter, and started on writing another one, and I'm REALLY hoping it won't take much longer to wrap it up, but I just never know with these characters. It's just go-go-go-go, and they don't really want to take a break from the dramaz. Which I'm kind of tired of, actually. I keep making them want to have fun and they always rebel. It's like "Seriously, guys?"
In other news, I'm trying really hard to just stay focused on getting school done so I can be done with all of this noise in the spring. Seriously, just a little longer. Then I can graduate and work my ASS off. Which I need to do, anyway, but I'm working on that. I'm trying to lose some weight. It won't be easy or quick, but I need to do something about it, because I'm no longer happy with where I am, visually. I can be some days, but it could be better. I'll let you know if I ever become happy with it again.
And I'm just trying to be content with life right now. It's working okay. I had a couple lapses at the very beginning of the year, but I'm doing better. I've just got to remember that life doesn't actually suck, and that it's okay to have bad days and get angry about shit. As long as you come back from it and don't think the world is a terrible awful place that's just going to hate on you until you die.
Obviously some days are harder than others, but I get over them and things go back to (relative) normalcy.
I'm fighting off a crush right now, too, since I really just don't need that in my life. I sometimes wish I just didn't care that much, but I'm just not a robot, a vulcan, or Sherlock Holmes. And quite honestly, at least two thirds of those have actual emotions that may or may not be stronger than your average human's. And no, I'm not talking about the robot.
I don't know. I have a really hard time with my emotions, as you lot well know. It's like, I want to feel, but I know that feeling will get me hurt, so I try hard not to, and that hurts anyway, and then I'm stuck in this quagmire of pain and emotions and I end up crying (which I hate) and boooooo. I'm not going to right now, I'm in a pretty good mood and a good place mentally at this point in time, but still...It's difficult.
Eh, this is getting too introspective. We'll talk again next week likely, if not before then.
Until Next Time, Dear Readers,