It's been a while, and apparently I just feel like writing tonight.
Lucky you guys.
My computer is fixed (yay!). I'm moving in a month (yay?). Work is kind of stressful (yay...).
And I'm kind of really annoyed and upset and confused and conflicted and a lot of other very unhappy-like emotions.
But I'm not sad. Which is weird. Mostly angry feelings. Which is fine. Could be worse. I'd rather be angry-upset than sad-upset. Likely less crying and FAR more exciting ways to get rid of the negative energy.
It's been a long week and it's only Wednesday. My weekend was ballin' though. Hung out with my main girl GL. Oh! And my maid of honor dress came in today (I'm super excited!!!!!!! You really don't have any idea exactly how excited I am about it).
But work has been kind of stressful. Oh don't get me wrong, it's not like it's difficult, it's just that there's a lot hinging on me doing well, and that's really nerve-wracking.
Although, my mindset has been more positive recently than it has EVER been, so that's been kind of a plus side to this whole situation.
And I'm avoiding conflict again. Which is something I need to not be doing, but I'm going to do it right now anyway, because I REALLY should not be answering any emails right now. Actually I probably should get to bed. I do have work in the morning, and I really don't want Dad to get upset with me about being late.
But I just...I needed to put this out here I guess. And so here it is.
I just really don't want to answer this person right now. I don't know that I have anything to say on the matter. Everything I've felt I already expressed. It's done and over with. I've forgiven the parties involved. Doesn't mean I'm not still annoyed that things played out the way they did, but I can't change any of it, and there was no way I could have controlled it at the time either. They control their reactions, and I can only control mine.
And right now I'm not answering that email.
Until Next Time, Dear Readers,