Wednesday, February 6, 2013

So it's Wednesday

Haha, guess what I didn't do today while waiting between classes?

Yeah, I didn't do ANY school work.  Oh and I didn't write up a blog post either.

Sorry bout that.  You're still getting one today.  Dunno how entertaining it's going to be, but we'll work on it.

I've had a request to go back to referring to people in my blog that I know in real life by the letters.  You know, GL, NT, DM, etc.

I want to add a couple more.  It'll be fun.  If you recognize yourself (you oughtn't) but if you do, I mean no harm.  I'm expressing my feelings.  This is...this is the most effective way.  It's VERY unlikely I will tell you something to your face.  I'm not good enough with my words to properly communicate in person my thoughts and feelings.  I'm barely good enough to effectively do so on the internet with unlimited time to think things over and look up what words I want to know.

So that I'm not doing this to hurt you, this is just...this is just my way of expressing my thoughts and feelings and I'm not good with words, despite what others might say.

So yes...Let's start by going over who we already know who I might still talk about.

We all know GL.  She's my best friend, my confidante.  GL stands for Good Lady.  Well, I might need to find better words, because as awesome as that is...she's really a Great Lady.  Gorgeous, great, gifted, glorious.  I'm not good at relationships with people.  I'm actually pretty difficult to get on with.  She'll tell you otherwise, but it's true.  The fact that no one else bothered to stay around is kind of testament to that.

She has a boyfriend.  He'll be MHA for Most Humorous Antelope.  There are reasonings behind this.  Unimportant, but reasons.  GL will know.

Then we have NT.  I believe that was for Not Totally.  It's still relevant, I think.  Not for the reasonings previously expressed (though I'm unsure if they still stand).  But he's just not totally there with me...And it sucks so much.  Because you know what, I want him to be in my life, I want him to be a major part.  I want him to be one of my best friends because we have that potential.  It's there.  He's just...apparently not willing to cultivate it.  And that's fine except for when it isn't and I'm a big girl and I can...I can get over it.

Might still talk about DM, Douchebag to the Max.  Which really needs something new, because that's too bloody long.  Dumbass Master.  Dildo Muncher.  I'm going to get progressively worse, so I'll stop and we'll just keep it where it was.  He's weird.  And an asshole.  And quite honestly I can't seem to just get over it.  I'm starting to.  It's been a ridiculously long process.  I've even killed him off in a story to try and help.  Sometimes I reread it to remind myself that it's over, and he means nothing.  I haven't even seen him in two years (plus!).  He was a jerkface and I dislike him.  However, he was the first guy who I seriously could see myself being with long term, and therefore I will likely bring him up lots.  It's unfair and I'm trying not to, but I might not get rid of his moniker just yet.

I want to add my sister, KW for Kyootie Wootie because I'm just that obnoxious and she doesn't read this anyway.  But she's super adorbs and it's unfortunate she's got a K name because very few descriptors start with K.

I also want to add someone else.  PC.  Politically Correct.  And he's a bit more of a girl than I am.  I'll likely talk about him some.  I feel like he is the St. John to my Jane Eyre.  And it's really off putting.  I can easily see myself settling for him.  But quite honestly I don't want to settle.  I want adventure in the great wide somewhere, and I don't think he wants that.  I just...he's a good guy, he is, he's just not the right guy for me.  And that is hard to admit, because I'm a people pleaser, and above all I want everyone else to be happy with my choices, and at some point I'm just going to have to be "no, this is what I want, and I'm sorry it doesn't match with what you want." because if I keep stifling myself, I'm going to end up with a lot more death scenes on my hands.

Ugh, this is getting too introspective.

Going back: Who have we got, GL, MH, NT, DM, KW, and PC...I don't really talk about anyone else with consistency.

OOh, I almost forgot!  I haven't told you guys, my Bio lab is filled with really attractive men.  I mean, ridiculous amounts of attractive men for such a small class.  Guh, it's a shame I decided to sit in the front of the class because it makes it hard to eye-stalk.  At least three of them think I'm not repulsive.  I've caught a couple stares.  I haven't verified, but I plan to if I think about it next week.  I'm thinking the yawn thing.  If they're staring they'll yawn too.

Okay, I think that's it. If I sit here any longer and keep writing this thing, it's just going to get depressed and mopey and girly and gross, and quite honestly I'm not really digging that right now.

So I'll leave you here, dear readers.  I appreciate you reading.

Mr/s. Anon commenter, I appreciate you!  If you have an account, log in before you comment!

Until Next Time,


  1. But that would take away the element of surprise, let's just say I have been reading your blog for the past 2 years. Think of me as a guardian. :)


    1. Oh fine :) I'll just HAVE to accept that answer I suppose. Thanks for reading, seriously :) I do really appreciate it!

    2. No worries! Sleep with a smile and wake up with a smile! everything will be A okay!

    3. I'm hoping you're family, because if you're not, that is SUPER creepy. Even if you are family, the annon thing is strange. So cut the creepy stalker thing, not cool.